Trailor of 2017

We are eleven days into the New Year. In years past I have gone to friends homes, had mini family parties, stayed up late watching the New Years countdown with mom and dad, gone to the community fireworks show, or simply went to bed early waking up in the new year. How I celebrate the...

Korean Christmas

Welcome to Christmas in Korea (the picture is my actual tree). You want to find the decorations you normally use for this special holiday, good luck. In Canada, we have aisles dedicated to Christmas. We dress our stores up and deck out our homes, yet here it is treated like a mediocre holiday. Now I'm...

Frozen by Fear

“I’m more afraid of disappointing and shaming you than God.” As those words came tumbling out of my mouth, I felt something was very wrong with saying them. Yet they were true for me. I wanted nothing more than for my mom, who I was speaking to at the time, to be proud of me....

Cookie Cuter Mirage

I used to believe that there was a pattern to life. If you followed along with it then everything would turn out like the cookie cutter world you see on TV. I wanted to have that life, or at least I thought I did. I wanted the step by step plan to getting the “normal”...

Finding Hope (III)

I had heard stories from my mom about how she and dad had met and he was her only boyfriend. There was no one to compare him to. I had hoped for that. They had met around the end of her graduation year from high school. So when I met a guy who was interested...

Why Are we Searching for Hope? (II)

I was optimistic for others to a fault. I always saw the good that was in them, or the positive event that was surely right around the corner for them. Yet when I glanced in the mirror I was consumed with hopelessness. Darkness clouded over me, covering my bright blue eyes that used to be...

What is Hope?

All my life my mother has pointed out that I have an amazing gift of forgiving others for anything and everything they have done to me. I find there is one flaw to this gift. I can forgive others easily, yet with myself it’s a completely different story. If I cannot forgive myself then where...

What is Trust?

Most people allow the word trust to slip from their lips with ease, but do we really know what it means? I never really thought about it until a friend asked me if I trusted them. My first response, like most peoples, was to say yes, but the word caught in my throat. It felt...

Why Do You Fear Putting all Your Eggs in God’s Basket?

Throughout our lives, we have at least been told once, “do not put all your eggs in one basket.” Now your first thought might be, “why on earth do I have eggs to put in one basket, let alone a bunch of baskets just lying around?” Please, don’t take the saying literally. If you do,...

Bent But Not Broken

I was speaking with my mother the other day, we were going through some of my old photos from about 1991-1997. She made a comment on how cute I was and couldn’t understand why I had been bullied since I was in kindergarten. I was cute, there was nothing physical that would cause people to...